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2011-03-15T17:18:00.024+08:00

The trip to KL~

Hi. I didn't blog for a week, didn't I. I realised so many people had read my blog. Cool. My command of English isn't really good and my vocabulary is quite limited, so please bear with me.

9th MARCH, WEDNESDAY

Crystal agreed to give me a morning call at 5am that day but it never came. Turned out I didn't sleep on the night before due to some pesky mosquitoes sucking out my blood and caused irritation despite having the air-con turned on. Usually when the air-con is on, I would sleep in bliss. But that night I feel like I was in living hell despite applying layers and layers of soothing cream and sprayed tons of insect repellent. I was twisting and turning in bed until I felt that I couldn't take it anymore and rushed to the bathroom for a bath at 5am (That's when Crystal promised to give me a morning call).

I came out of the bathroom and messaged her. We agreed to meet at 6 at Tanah Merah station. I got dressed into my sports wear(I was thinking of heading to the stadium/gym after sending Terance off) and met Crystal with swollen mosquitoes' bite marks all over my body. Reached Airport and met up with Terence and his family. Chatted a little before he checked in and boarded his flight. When we were about to leave the place, Alex reached. He suggested for breakfast but Crystal and I were too tired so we ended up going home instead. When I reached home, the first thing I do was to head to my room and sink into the comfort of my bed and knockout.

Sending Terrence off~

When I woke up, it was already 5pm. I took a shower, got dressed, and headed to Novena Square 2 in the search of finding the photo studio which Yuyun told me before. "The photo studio will take their time to help you to edit your photos before giving them to you!" was what she told me over dinner last week and I'm convincted already. "Hiao leh you!" She remarked.

So anyway, I managed to find the place in the end. It's called Ministry of Pictures(I guess they probably copied the name from the club "Ministry of Sound",which closed down long ago) and their service was great. Even though it was expensive($20 by the way), but I love the way the photos turned out to be. I headed home and laid out my Ezy-ID and my IC along with the photo that I had took at the studio and hence, the comparison of how I looked in the past began. "WOW I looked ridiculous!" "I looked so fat and hideous when I was in primary school!" "My hair looked like it was a disaster!" I'm curious why do people wanted to be friends with me in those days and finally knew that why I was chosen to be a target to be bullied by those bullies during my primary school days. Fat and ugly = license to be bullied. As I'm typing out these, the thoughts of the past began to haunt me. You may think that being bullied in primary school was no big deal, but you are not in my shoes. You won't understand... The feeling of being bullied in school; in class; even by teachers back then... "You are so ugly and fat!" "You? A boy? More like a girl instead! You got bullied a little bit still wanna complain to teacher! Loser!" were a few insults that I could think of right now. This might sounds like a post of my experiences of being bullied but I guess I will save it for another post in the future instead.

My photo. Isn't it wonderful~
How I had changed(From left to right): 2006 | Current | 2008 November

10th MARCH, THURSDAY
What I did on that day was a forgettable one. So forgettable was it that I have forgotten what I have done. Oh wait... I remembered. I headed to cell group meeting donned in my spectacles, a very old shirt that I chanced upon in my closet, and a pair of bermudas that I didn't wear for a year and a half. I looked ridiculous on that day. I don't give a damn about it. Well... Actually I do(insert sad face here). Managed to convince Crystal to come for cell group meeting despite her not coming ever since that Festival of Praises 2009. Had supper after that at Bedok Interchange. What a boring and forgettable day. On a side note, I think Amnesia is coming on my way.

11th MARCH, FRIDAY

Alright now it's 20th March and I'm blogging about an event that occurred 9 days ago. Kinda like being the author of the book "Time traveller's wife". So I was supposed to meet Crystal to shop for someone's birthday gift on that day's late afternoon but she ended up canceling it so I met Yuyun instead in Nex around 2pm to meet for lunch. Lugged my laptop along. We were walking around restaurants being fickle-minded,deciding where to eat. "Aiyah this restaurant cannot! Too many school kids! Aiyah that one cannot too! Too expensive!" We finally decided on a place, ate our lunch and what was supposed to be just a lunch meeting turned out into a free and easy catching up session between us.

We headed to the open space in front of the bars and restaurants of Esplanade, just right in front of the Singapore River, deciding where to head next- Merlion Hotel? Marina Bay Sands? Helix Bridge? I knew we came out without any plans, any motives and any productivity which if I were to go out with my uncle like how we did on that day instead, he would preach about productivity and hitting the targets of my plans within the time spent in going out with him blahblahblah.

I kinda have a love/hate relationship in going out with him. Just like how I have a love/hate relationship with my sister. I love going out with him because he teaches me about how he overcame his struggles during his schooling days and tells me how no one had the audacity to bully him,how to deal with negativism and how the world is today-in summary. Through him I had a slight insight of how's Buddhism like. However, I hate the fact that every time he mentioned about adult's life or his days spent in army, there's a line between me and him. Like how I'm often being treated as a kid whenever I'm out with him for not knowing things that he had experienced before. Well, I don't wanna go there and wake up from my illusion of knowing everything and back to the reality where I am a kid with only like 17% of knowing how is life. I am not married. I have no kids. I have no grandchildren. I have absolute no right to describe how life is. Unless I have reached the ripe age of 80-99 years old. Then I will have the power to make my own judgement.

Back to topic. We took some photos at the open space and the foreigner guy sitting behind us(Ang moh~) smiled at Yuyun but not me. What. The. Heck. Proceeded to Helix bridge and went over to Starbucks at ~~Raffles City~~ Marina Square(Raffles' was too packed) to take a breather and camwhored together from 5pm to 7pm. Took the train and headed to Clarence's birthday party. On the way we had fun chatting about the skits on The Noose and mimicking them with body actions. "(In china accent)Xiong mao! Hei shio hei shio!" "(In American accent)My name is Babarella~ And I love to play erm... Bitch volleyball at Bisand and Crementi~" "(In phillipines accent)Hi my name is Leticia and I am a maid" Played "Ice and Water" with E391 by the pool shortly after singing Clarence his birthday song. Soaked in sweat was the aftermath for most of us. But it was fun. First time playing it with the cell group. If I didn't persuade those people who were reluctant to play, I guess we would not be having fun then. Headed home while some of them went to watch the midnight show "Gnomeo and Juliet". Got knockout and slept in bliss.

The Angmoh guy in orange smiled at her when we took this photo. WHAT. THE. HECK.

At Helix bridge~

Camwhoring~

At Clarence's party. Happy birthday, Clarence~

12th MARCH, SATURDAY

Met some of my cell group people at 11am in Bedok central to do some groceries shopping to prepare food for the crowd who's going to come with us along to Marina Barrage on that day. With both hands carrying bags of groceries, Ailin,Esther,Yuyun,Alex and me headed over to Alex's place to prepare the food. Yiren, Tayxi and Chloe came later. Made sweet corn, potato egg salad, hotdogs, egg and ham sandwiches. Had eye infection while making the food but it got better when I applied eyedrop. Bought some drinks and chips from a shop and off we went.

Took the shuttle bus and reached the location. Most of them didn't come before. The place was filled with families, couples and groups of friends. The rest of the people who were not with us came later. The food tasted great. Ate a superfluous amount of food. Had fun flying kites and enjoyed the time there chilling out with the people. Half of them went to Chinatown for KTV. Was hesitating whether should I join them or not. But I chose to head back home since I'm tired anyway. What a day.

I smiled too much here

Too blur -_- Genghao's photography skills are damn lousy~

Oh ya Tayxi if you are viewing this blog, I shall say that the ferdora doesn't suit me :(

13th MARCH, SUNDAY

I woke up late again. Went out with Warren to vivocity to catch the movie called "Gnomeo and Juliet". That's all.

14th MARCH, MONDAY

Was supposed to meet Warren to cycle at East Coast again but I was late and it rained. So he got rather pissed and canceled our plans. I stayed home that whole day. Opps.

15th MARCH, TUESDAY

I met Daryl and Cassandra 7.15pm at ION Orchard. Daryl and I did not meet up with Cassandra for a period of a year plus so we somehow got rather excited meeting an old friend of ours(Even though she was from E459 and she's the only one whom I got close to in that cell group). "Wow Cassandra changed a lot! Becoming more prettier!" were the words that came out bluntly out of Daryl's mouth upon seeing her. "Hi..." She cooed shyly upon when we greeted her. We headed over to Mos Burger for dinner and chatted in an awkward manner because me and Daryl were shy too, thinking of subjects to talk to her while eating. Asked her to join our cell group and our first service in Suntec on Saturday if she wants as her closest friend in E459 had switched to another church in Katong. "Maybe..." She answered politely.

We headed to the streets of Orchard and started taking photos. Photos of each of us walking on the streets. Kinda like photo shoot. Whatever. Headed back home. I felt that the experience was far beyond words. Like how God's unfailing love that had showered upon me. Way beyond words. Japan had been hitted recently by the catastrophic tsunami and earthquake, which is much more worse than what had happened to Haiti a year before. My deepest condolence to those people who had died in this unfortunate natural disaster. I admire Japan for its culture, their food and their weather which I had made plans to head to Tokyo, Japan next year. Its my most favourite country in Asia, coming next is Seoul, Korea and Bangkok, Thailand. It is saddening to see people losing their innocent lives over there and many of them went missing by the strong impact of the tsunami. I feel like going there to help the people but I can't do anything. I feel so helpless for the people over there. However, the people living over there must embrace themselves up in times of adversities like this. They must not be suicidal and give up their lives just because they have lost their love ones. They must know that there's a ray of hope for them. Will keep them in prayers.

On another side, I felt that I'm in bliss to live in a country such as Singapore which has zero natural disasters like earthquakes and tsunamis occurring. I didn't know that I'm way fortunate than those people living in poverty or countries with high rate of natural disasters occurring. Until today. I am so selfish. I kept comparing myself with others who are living in luxury and shunned myself from associating my stories to those who are way worse than what I am living now. Life is definitely better when you don't compare yourself to others. I shall learn how to not be a judgemental person. Amen.

Cassandra's so hiao here~

They so hiao again HAHA~

16th MARCH, WEDNESDAY

I met my uncle on that day. Declined Crystal's offer to hang out with the guys in Tampines to go out with my uncle on that day. We went to gym in Bukit Timah area and Botak Jones in Clementi by car. Headed back home to hide in the embrace of my bed. I love it. Fluffy Muffy.

17th MARCH, THURSDAY

Woke up at 2pm. Surfed the net a little and met the guys in Mcdonalds at East Coast park to roller skate at 7pm. In the end only Crystal, Esther and me skated, Ailin jogged, while the rest of them took a stroll in the park. Lucas and Daryl/Tsao cycled though. Went back to return the skates at 9pm with Crystal, Ailin, Lucas and Daryl while the rest had reached the food centre near the lagoon. Lucas and Daryl sort of having a competition between them to see who could cycle to the food centre first by bike and that the three of us were left alone. Teached Ailin how to roller skate on the way. We reached at 10.15pm(Which means we took a whooping 1 hour 15 minutes to reach there!) and when we came back with our food, we + Lucas bidded goodbyes to the guys(Tayxi,Esther,Shenghong,Daryl,Tsao and Alex) who were heading home since they had been there even since 9pm. While eating, Ailin chanced upon her friend where she ended up talking to her for 45 minutes and so, it came down between me,Crystal and Lucas to chat. Chatted about some funny topics on relationships. Crystal's dad came to fetch me and Ailin home as Lucas cycled to meet us with his bike when he came. Bidded goodbyes to him and was chauffeured home by her dad. I owned her one.

Where got people skate while holding hands one -_-

18th MARCH, FRIDAY

Went cycling at East Coast park with Warren. Came upon a junction where I saw a large group of my friends cycling in front of me but I managed to slow down my pace and changed directions to avoid bumping into them again. After that I went home to take a shower and smelling fresh and clean, headed over to Bedok interchange's food centre to meet Yuyun, Huijie and genghao for dinner. Gossiped a bit with them. Reached Daryl's house at 7pm with them. The rest came around only at 7.45pm. Cell group meeting started only at 8pm. What. The. Heck. Headed over to Mcdonalds with some of them for supper. Shared something within Crystal, Yiren and me as we were sitting in another table together. If I were to tell you, I'll have to kill you.

19th MARCH, SATURDAY

My uncle told me that his dog(A brown Shiba Inu) gave birth to a new born puppy at yesterday's midnight. However, he mentioned that it's colour(Brown and white patched) was weird as the father was black coloured. Hmm... Headed to Suntec by train at 2.30pm and unplanned coincidentally saw Yuyun on the train when I was going to alight at Esplanade station. "Aye? Why are you not alighting here? I thought you're gonna to join us to queue for seats?" "I will come later! Heading to Bras Basah to buy some tennis stuffs before joining you guys later hehe!"

Yiren and the guys called me when I have reached to ask me to help them to run some errands by buying food for them so I bought food from Mcdonalds and tried to find them in the queue but failed. And so I joined the queue alone until I called and saw Esther, Shenghong and Genghao behind me. We joined the queue at 3.20pm but was only allowed to enter the hall at 4.25pm. Never mind, its worth the wait. The hall was beautiful. Magnificent. Glorious. The service was great too. The whole cell was wearing formal on that day. How awesome could it be?

The fellowship dinner was devastating. It let you witness and experience the weaknesses of a big cell group. How you couldn't direct everyone to agree on a location to eat. How people got angry because of the location to eat. Ended up people were scattered around everywhere. Pissed off, Yuyun, Huijie and I ate at Jus Acia in Marina Square. I felt that its atrocious how the whole group of people had reached the doors of Jus Acia just to be informed that the whole group will be eating at the food court in Suntec City. Wouldn't you feel pissed? I told the two girls to hold onto our stand firmly to eat inside when the three of us were already standing at the doors looking at the rest of them standing outside not making any decisions. We ordered our main courses and I began to rant about the failures of having such a big cell group. After chatting with them for awhile and waited for our dishes to come, we went to take our drinks and went back to chat again. I love Jus Acia as there is free flow of drinks and ice cream for all the diners over there! In addition, a meal only cost less than $7! Woo hoo~ After eating our dinner, decided to find the guys at Yotshinoya(Yeah... The rest FINALLY decided on a place to eat).

When we reached, the guys were waiting for our arrival to leave together. Scanned through the crowd. Saw that Yiren's face carried the same emotion as what I felt. Approached him and talked to him. He was pissed too about the whole cell group's inability to decide on a location to eat. I agreed too. Led the whole cell group to the MRT station. But the problem about a big cell group again? Some of them will walk and stop, walk and stop like never ending. The others stopped way far behind which I'm too pissed to even care about their existance. Yiren, Christon and me went to the East West line in City Hall through the Esplanade link while the rest of the people who were with us took the Circle line in Esplanade station. Bidded goodbyes, and Christon stormed ahead leaving me and Yiren to catch up with him. Turned out he was as pissed as the both of us too.

Chatted about how we dislike stopping and waiting for the rest to catch up in order to go home. Gossiped on the train within the three of us. Told them how I hate some of the cell group people who are always slowing the whole cell down by taking their time, walking slowly. Its like guys, you don't respect the rest of us by slowing our time and causing the whole group to wait when we need to do something or go home whenever we are walking together. People felt the same as me, just that they were kind enough to not give you the reality bash by voicing out! Even though I'm the one being seen as evil over here but you guys are simply too much. You guys have no sense of urgency. It doesn't occur 1 or 2 times. If that is, I'm cool in letting it pass by. BUT ITS EVERY SINGLE TIME!!! Don't you guys understand. Slow = Low productivity = Losses out to competitors in the market! When will you guys get a wake up slap? Why do you guys always mentioning about changing ourselves in bringing the better out of our cell group when you guys don't even make the effort to change even the simplest like walking and keeping up on pace with the rest of us? Too much. Simply too much. I felt so helpless even though it occurred often in my cell group. *Sigh*

That night I couldn't sleep. I checked my clock and it was 2.30am. Suddenly, a strong force of spiritual presence flow upon me and I weeped. Its had been awhile even since I had prayed to lord by myself. I decided to pray. Even though I'm ugly, I'm full of sins, even when my friends shunned me, even when people despised me, my father in heaven, my loving abba father, he's always there with me. He accepted me with who I am and who I was. He sent his son, Jesus, to die on the cross, the mighty cross, to forgive all our sins. Even when I'm insulted, being bullied, in a suicidal state of ending my life because of the challenges that I had faced, he's always there to hear me out. My level of being insulted, being bullied, being challenged by other people isn't as high as compared to what Jesus had when he was alive. If he stood strong and firm then I shall be strong and firm too, to not give my life up because of a minor problem that is peanuts as compared to his situation. He picked me up from my sins and in my state of shame. I was once cold, feeling lonely but now, under his care, I'm shaped into a different person. My whole world is his design and he's always there before us. I will sing him a song to praise my father in heaven to bring glory for him and tell all the wonders that he had done for me. And everyday I'm changing into his image more and more. I wanna hide in his embrace. I will declare to the world that he is king of all kingdoms and he is my abba father without feeling any shame. And where do he stay? I tried to find him but he was all along inside me, deep inside my heart... I love you, Jesus.

20th MARCH, SUNDAY

Intended to meet my uncle at 2pm but the Shiba Inu mother experienced pain and so he apologized and canceled the meeting and drove her to see a vet. We met at 4.30pm instead to watch "The diary of a wimpy kid" at 5pm in Tampines Mall. Asked him how's the Shiba was doing. He told me that she didn't excret wastes for 4 days because she thought that the pain was equavillant to giving birth to another puppy but that's not the case. Silly doggy. When she returned home she immediately ran to find her puppy to feed her. Wow, the act of mother's love. How touching indeed. The show was alright-just too many kids. Headed home and here I am, lying on my bed blogging. Its 3am now. I started blogging ever since like 10pm to blog the posts from 13th March to 20th March. WOW. Someone should give me a pat in the back already. Anyway, my appointment to install my school's programmes into my laptop is on this coming tuesday. They told me to back up everything since they are going to help me to re-format everything but I don't know a single thing!!! Can some good samaritians help me? Its time to sleep now. Good night world :)

What a wasted trip

2011-03-08T01:10:00.002+08:00

When we were in 2008

I woke up this ~~morning~~ late afternoon with muscle-ache all over my body. Perhaps the 45 minutes jog at the stadium yesterday triggered the nerves. Damn it. The first sight I saw when I woke up is MOM again. She preached to me about how I woke up 1pm 2pm everyday when most of the population in Singapore had spent their time working for 5 hours before she left for her work. After she's gone I went online for awhile and left the house at 5pm for my student pass' photo-taking, as required by republic for their adminstration and registration (I swear the whole registration thing is troublesome ttm).

So I left the house and took bus 14 to Tanah Merah Station. I bumped into Damaian #1(Fellow classmate of mine) but I pretended that I didn't see him and looked at my phone to pretend I'm texting to someone before I realised he was gone. The train ride to Bugis was awkward. The person sitting opposite me kept on looking at my direction so since I didn't want to make eye contact or look back at the person's direction, I plugged my headset into my phone and went to youtube to look for videos but it failed on me. And so I took out my mp3 and look at all directions except for my front view(Which is where the person's sitting duh). After a while I got really limited but I don't want to be a loser and pretend to sleep so... I went onto Facebook and Twitter while that person kept on looking at my direction(Not as if I'm the type who's very handsome or cute or a celebrity).

I alighted at Bugis station alone(Since I'm meeting Warren later so I went out alone) and searched for the studio which Warren told me that the service is good as they help you to edit your photos before giving them to you. In the mid of searching, I bumped into Damaian #2(I don't know her much but she's from 4E3 and often comes to my class), who's alone too but she can't recognise me as I look different from what I look in school. I reached the location which Warren gave me but it was no longer there. What a wasted trip. I called Yy and she mentioned that Square2 has it but I checked my watch and realised it was too late to head there as I'm meeting Warren at 6pm so I headed to Tanjong Pagar station to meet him up. He drove us to Ikea Tampines for our dinner where I saw Damaian #3(Not again) who's my primary schoolmate but I didn't even talk to her when we entered Secondary school even till now. I told Warren about seeing my schoolmates everywhere I went today and if I see another one again, I'm in pretty luck as usually, I would not even see any familar faces whenever I goes out.

So I went to Bedok Central to run errands for my sister (ice-cream mochi, anyone?) and I bumped into Damaian #4 and Damaian #5 (Both were my school classmates) and they didn't recognise me until I decided to wave at them and they got a shock for a second thinking who I am dressed so handsomely(I'm kidding). It took them a second before realising who am I and decided to wave back at me. My luck is pretty good today. Pity why didn't I gamble today *Sigh*.

I got home and watched The Noose with sister in Mum's room and went online for awhile before sis stood by at my room at 11.30pm. "There's 2 guys kissing at our sky garden below! Come and look!" was what she exclaimed with excitement in her tone. Sure enough, there's 2 teenage guys in the heat of passion by hugging and kissing. "I'm gonna chase them away by closing my curtains and windows" She hissed. The 2 poor lads got frightened by my sis' evil scheme and switched to a darker and more private area at the sky garden. "Har... Your evil deeds has frightened the poor couple you know. If I were you, I would have stood silence and watch. C'mon... So many couples(Straight or gay)had kissed and hugged in full glory of the neighbourhood in the past. Why did you target those 2 guys? C'mon, give them a break."

I don't know why do people like to discriminate gays or lesbians or whatsoever and some(like my sister), homophobic of them. Why don't people understand that it's their life. Nobody can stop them. They are just trying to find out their own sexual orientation. As much as I hate guys who behave and dress feminine(sissy)and girls donning guyswear and sporting a slope-cut(butch), I will still make an effort to be friends with them because I'm sure some people will despise them because of who they are. But I have currently no such friends yet so yeah. Smile :) Before I end this post, I would like to share some zilian moment...
I look nicer when I smile and I look arrogant when I don't, right? Well, good night world.

After a hurricane comes a rainbow

2011-03-05T22:46:00.007+08:00

Today, I woke up in bed, seeing mom standing beside with Republic Polytechnic's package documents in her hands. The documents were scattered on the floor by me after I had finished doing the online poly registration via the instructions given in the package when I went to sleep. I thought that she was kind enough to help pick up and put them on my desk but I was WRONG. SHE WAS READING IT. When she realised I had woke up she went ahead and said to me in mandarin that her friends told her when I graduate from the course in Republic Poly I can only become a cook in hawker centres and bugged me why I didn't pick a course that is office-related where I will have good future and feeling relax at work with the air-con. First, why is my course(sports-related) has to do with becoming a cook in hawker centres in future? There's no link in it. Secondly, does office-related jobs brings in more money and are the tasks given easier than the sports-related ones? Nope. I would rather being in the sports industry than in an office.

Why? Because imagine sitting in front of the company's computer for 8-9hours everyday typing out documents or work tasks given to you. You will feel that your energy being absorbed as the computer gives off a kind of energy that makes your body feels weak that is bad to our body in the long run. And sitting inside an office is BORING as there are rarely any normal conversations among the staffs there where all of them are rushing to finish off their load to avoid staying back to OT.

Well, back to mum. I argued back that she's contradicting herself as there isn't any link in becoming a cook in the hawker centre in future and told her her friends are talking lies and she is stupid and naive to believe them. This time round, she mentioned that no one would want to choose and study my course since its a lousy course according to her. She's contradicting herself again. She walked away when she heard me saying in mandarin "If no one would want to choose my course, why is there 250 students in this course this year?" Ahh... A sign of victory. I stood up and closed the doors before heading back to continue with my sleep.

HI I'M BACK

2011-03-05T00:14:00.017+08:00

HI I'M BACK.

I promised to blog after O level ended but I kind of got busy working, going out with friends everyday thus, neglecting this space.

I read through my previous posts a year ago and found a lot of grammer mistakes inside.
A quick update now :

O level: Got posted to Republic Polytechnic under the course "Sports and Exercise Sciences"

At first when I received my posting in that morning the three words "WHAT.THE.FXXK" came across my mind. I wanted to get into the course "Architect" or "Landscape Architect" in Singapore Polytechnic. My vision was to be an architect designer (Bringing in modern Venetian and European building designs into Singapore, where all the building designs are crap) but my destiny was sealed when the result of the poly posting came. I knew I wanted to get into Singapore Polytechnic since its name sounds cool and it was the only school that offers Architect but I wouldn't want to beg the Principal just to get in(besides, that course's cut-off point is way lower what I had obtained).

The first impression of Republic Polytechnic in my mind: Lousy school; full of gangsters, The school's standard is just a little bit higher than ITE, The teachers and courses in that school suck... ... and the list goes on. I'm as sterotype as some of you guys. If a person mentions that he's from Ngee Ann Polytechnic, people's first reaction will be "Ohhhhh! What a good poly! Your grades must be good and the people there are good people!". But if another person mentions that he's from Republic, people will be "Oh... Republic poly... Your grades sure must be lousy... The people there must be bad... Have you heard that the one who got slashed at Down Town East recently? He's a gang member from Republic... Sigh..." See what do I mean? I like doing and learning sports even since I had slimmed down; therefore the interest in studying "Sports and Exercise Sciences" as my diploma. When I received the text that I got posted to this course, I jumped in joy but when I saw the name of the school I will be posted into, I began to have thoughts whether or not will I be doing great in that school.

I'm the type of person that judge things before knowing and understanding them. Its like saying Mcdonalds' food are bad from people when you haven't even tasted it yet... Yeah... You get it? After the posting of the results, I did not tell anyone of the school I got posted to because I was in shame; for getting into such a "lousy" school. However, after a few days past by and after a few conversations with the people studying there, Republic Poly was indeed not bad at all. I have got people telling me that the courses in RP have such a lousy cop because it is a new school which has just started in 2007 and they wanted to attract people to get in as the facilities are new as compared to Singapore Poly's, where half of the campus are old.

Someone once told me "It's like Meridian Jc. It just started in 2003 where the entry to the school was a lousy 20 (perhaps one of the "lousiest" jcs back then). However, look where it stands now? The minimum entry to get into that school is now a good 10. Do not judge something without knowing it. You are just like one of those stereotypes in this society."

After this encounter, I began to think "Republic poly. Not bad. Not bad at all! It's the only school which offers diploma in sports where some of the people from Singapore Sports School gets direct entry into the School of Sports @ RP! I should really strive hard in my aim of interest and give it a best shot! It will be a good school at the end of the day! (-Emits optismistical auras around me and instil positive thoughts into me-)" Republic polytechnic. Here I come. ;)

The great holidays and encounters after the major exam

Immediately after the O level exams finished, I found a job. An admin-assistant post. I, thinking that it was easy, gave it a try the next day. Boy, was it tough. The job isn't as easy as you could think okay. The permanent staffs there will force you to do their work when they couldn't finish or if you are seen as being "free". The pay -$5.80/hour- is pathetic.

Working is boring there as everyone are so busy finishing their work on time to avoid staying more than they wanted therefore everyone rarely talks to each other. BUT I got to know great friends there. So every lunchtime I will hang out with my clique and we will sit by and I got to take part with them in gossiping about the Permanent staffs in the Staff Canteen. Had so much fun(With the clique)and had hell(working inside the office). Glad it's only for 2 weeks.

One of the great friends that I knew there: Angie!

After quitting the first job, I got my freedom as promised to myself for a month. Went to KL and Bangkok with the guys. After deciding that I had enough fun, I went online and look for jobs(this time looking for those which has flexibility) and I found it! It was being a Houseware Promoter at the John Little Mega Sales @ Expo where I got to work on weekdays only and the pay was $7/hour. The best part was I got to have any long meal breaks anytime(since I'm the only one in charge there) and I had 2 meal breaks everyday which consists of 2 hours each anytime I wanted. My working timing was 9.30am to 6.30pm but I cheated a little since I'm the only one in charge there so I came at 12pm everyday and leave at 5.30pm (before I knew that Yuyun was working there).

I had fun there too. Knew some working friends from there and I incidently bumped into Yuyun, who is also working there without me noticing, and our friendship grew through working! She would visit me during my first meal break and I would would accompany her for her 1 hour meal break (Her company sucks since she was only allowed 1 hour for meal and she needs to punch in and out her timecard when she had her meal break. Unlike me, where my company gave me a timesheet for me to ask my partner to sign but I cheated my hours and she gratefully played along with me.) and Jasmon(Another really really great friend I knew there) for his 2 hours meal break (SAME AS ME YAY!).

Ever since I knew that Yuyun was working there, I stayed everyday talking to her during her work untill 11pm until we parted goodbyes and went home, on the line to chat with each other again. Ever since my work assignment has ended, we each changed from a cell group member that talks to each other only like 5% to a true blue best friend where we rant,rave,gossip and pour out our emotion vomits to each other either through on the line or by sms. Some people only click with each around after a year but for the both of us, its just 5 days and we... you get it. God can makes all miracles occur ;) I got close to Jasmon too, but he's busy working unlike me lazing around at my comfort, so I only gets to go out with him when he's free.

I'm the promoter of houseware while she's the housekeeper of the changing rooms haha!

After ending my job at Expo, I kinda missed it. Because the promoters there got to know each other as we are free to walk around and working is boring without talking (oh that rhymes!) I got busy everyday as I kept going out to enjoy my life before school starts. Well, enjoying life is definately in the genes of the Lee family.

Life is short-so enjoy while you can!

Recently(last week), my church marked "The last service in Expo" before moving to Suntec on the 19th March. All of us were having a mixed emotion then- a bit of excitement, a bit of uneasiness of letting go of Expo. Well, things would definitely gets better. We are moving to Suntec city! Rejoice! We must learn how to let go of the old things in order for greater things to come. Amen.

Yuyun.Me.Huijie.

Cliff.Crystal.Me

Me.Tayxi.Jeremy

Me.Esther.Chensian

Crystal.Me.Daryl

Ahhh... It's been a long time since I blogged a post that is this long. A year in a brief. I would have wanted to continue and blog about the roller-blading trip with Daryl and Crystal where we had a blast(well... Crystal really did have a blast and fell alot of times haha!) and blog about the meetings with Jasmon and his friends yesterday but I am feeling way too tired now. I started blogging at 12am and it's 2.56am. WOW. Good night world.

Me. Good night!

Unfailing love, so undeserved

2010-08-03T17:06:00.003+08:00

Hi I'm back for another update after going on a hiatus for a period of 4 months... I have nothing to blog as I'm focusing on my O level and aim to strive well so here's a quick update

(1)I'm so glad E391 has merged with E290 to form the new E391!!! God bless

(2)Guess how heavy am I now since year 2009,november? From then 68.5kg to a now 62kg! I swear my cardio workout dropped since school has started, but I do not know why I magically loss weight...

(3)Wow it has been so fast half a year was gone,but we'd stayed still together. Never unfaithful, Never untrusty, and never lose my interest in you. WNBH,I love you

(4)O level is coming up in about 3months' time. Can't believed that everyone's not stressed up...

Off I go again... If you wanna catch-up with me, do catch me @

www.twitter.com/jordanleeway

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1035514978

For more further updates

Hold on forever and never let go you ...

2010-04-10T22:27:00.003+08:00

Hello I'm back
I didn't update my blog the past because I'm lazy to cut and paste those html to POST those pictures here
Since I'm here, let's talk about today
Went out with baby to Funan shopping mall to bring home my Ixus 130 which costed a bomb and guess what ...?
I accidentally tore away the rubber coat of the battery slot !!!!!
I'm such short of luck when it comes to electronic gadgets zzz....

In year 2006, when my family bought a new olympus camera, I dropped it when I sneaked it back to my room to explore on the 1st night, leaving a permanent mark on the rim of the lenses zzz....

In year 2007, guess what! I spoilt my 1st 3months old handphone !!!! Anyway it was not MY fault anyway it's the class party fault but oh well I'm still suck at electronic gadgets zzz....

In year 2008, I SPOILT THE WHOLE CAMERA AFTER CHANGING THE MODE. I DIED AFTER THAT

In year 2009, when our vaio laptop came to our house, I was praying to god to bless that nothing happens to it. AND GUESS WHAT. IT'S APPEARANCE CHANGED WITHIN A WEEK DUE TO ME -_________________________-

In year 2010, I went to Funan with my baby and brought home an Ixus 130 back and I ruined its beautiful and stylish battery slot! Now it looks pretty much like crap ...

How unfortunate ... I need a haircut tomorrow and I'm so gonna play with the camera tomorrow! ;)

Time for photobooth spam ~

2010-03-16T16:37:00.015+08:00

Get ready
because a photobooth spam will be occurred and be updated every now and then

I will give you a preview of it after then this column will be updated regularly presenting photos of the past awesome/+ aweful moments that I had never uploaded on my blog before and photos that are currently taken with captions added on to describe my life as typing out is borrrrrrrrrrrrrrrring and frussssssssssstrating *Wink*

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*EDITED*

Caption : Last church service for 2009 with Cellgroup! (27th December 2009)
Caption : Caption : Body World's + Photography trip with Cassandra (27th December 2009)
Caption : Cell group fellowship @ Changi Airport (2nd January 2010)

Caption : Cell group fellowship @ Changi Airport (16th January 2010)

Caption : Childcare centre's Farhan,posing with his artpiece (18th March 2010)

Caption : Farhan's artpiece was destroyed with my drawings, lol! (18th March 2010)

Caption : My Artwork piece @ the childcare centre! (18th March 2010)
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So stay tuned!
(P/S) It's updating faster than you ever thought of ...

Being kind and polite won't get you anywhere

2010-03-13T12:19:00.003+08:00

Being kind and polite will get you nowhere
Because everyone will take your kindness as granted and try to step over you or making an advantage over you, as seemed to be coatriding
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Oh I didn't blog about for the past month's activities
Should I blog them out? NO, because it would be endless full of rants and raves and I probably forgot them anyway (erm... I did shopping spree? Swimming & suntanning & gyming with BFF? Dreaming about cars? And had ... ? Forgotten already!!!)
Well, I'm lazy to sum it all up, except that I mostly hang out with Adam with him having to tolerate my craps about my dream cars and all sort of kiddy stuffs.

Anyway, there's someone over in school thats spoils my mood everyday and you're going down. How was I wrong when I thought he was good and the goodest thing was he looks like a troll. Slut. Son of a Whore. Inglorious Bastard. Society outsiders. I wished to fill up a whole chant of hokkien vulgurities or two but I'm ain't that vulgur guy. Talking about being nice.

(P/S) OH YAH I FORGOT THERE'S 22 25COMMENTS WAITING TO BE MODERATED. I'M GONNA DIE

My smokescreen?

2010-02-17T21:06:00.005+08:00

Went for round 2 of shopping spree with Adam in town

Results were good - A leather jacket + acid washed jeans under $200

Went cycling @ East coast park with Adam again to pump those leg muscles up and all I have to say,

thanks for your surprising gift for letting your brand new pair of Nike pumps off to me brother Adam,

you are a great brother to me

School's a nightmare

It's unpredictable, like a horror movie show

Somedays it goes happy then sad,

somedays it goes happy till the end

sad to the max core like a funeral

There's always some jerks or sluts that messes up my mood in school

How can I say to those of them like say currently there's 3 out of 1400 in school?

Immature,lifeless,hopeless,low-society-ranking trolls

Does this sounds like another emotions' vomit?

Nope I don't think so

Anyway, count yourself lucky that I have been tolerating the 3 of you since the start of the year

Don't force me to use my last resort on you

Lastly, tomorrow up till Sunday I will be hanging out with brother Adam, and maybe there's a 3rd shopping spree with Chensian to town(again) this coming friday night ~

Bye, best of regards and a happy Chinese New Year

(In which I realised I didn't took any photos with my family,relatives,cousins)(Argh man,Shit.)

Retail therapy

2010-02-11T12:52:00.003+08:00

Retail therapy @ town yesterday night despite sick.

Spent $300+ on luxury wear

Thanks Adam for the MJordan's pumps ...

Even when the moutain trembles and a thousands fall,

I'll stand with you,

My Jesus is my all ...

Stop all your false pretence and get real

2010-02-08T17:22:00.006+08:00

You brought me so high up now ...

It's 10 feet high ....

But now,

you're dropping me down,down,down ....

What do you think this is? A rollercoaster ride?

Silicon,Saline,Poison, inject me

2010-02-01T17:01:00.003+08:00

School life sucks. Everyday is party day for me after school currently. Went to see Windy recently and she's doing great! Her birthday is coming up soon and we are celebrating her birthday! She's a one happy puppy :)

My beloved baby

I bought my contact lenses for the first time yesterday but I does not want to wear it with the naked eyes, so... I bought some pairs of specs to match with the lense colour !

And I also went out frequently with my beloved E391 members these few weeks!(not all, but some...)

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I lost my blogging bug already! Damn it!

(Insert your title here)

2010-01-04T22:12:00.006+08:00

Today was first day of school. Totally not excited for it.
Here's an annoying part : My pants kept on dropping off whenever I walked a certain distance !!!
Well, who asked the weight-conscious me to lose 5kg of fats.

Oh shucks I have lost my way of blogging man shit.

After school, rushed over to town to meet Lucas & Chensian for their shopping spree (which consisted of really really high-fashion boutiques which I did not even browse before like Bread & Butter, Limited Ed. , Evisu (or what you called that), Christian audigier etc.) and my window - shopping spree : all in my embarassing school uniform.

In total, Chensian bought one pair of Enisu washed denim for 500 bucks (OMG !!!) while Lucas bought one Reebok pumps for $100 from Limited Ed. Headed back home with envy.

This coming friday, movie outing with my beloved cell group E391 and I'm sure there will be lots of camwhores man.

(P/S) (Saturday) Retail therapy with Andy. Off we go to sales like Zara, Ed Hardy, Queen's coulture in town + city again !!!

I have forlon keratosis pilaris conditions

2009-12-20T15:17:00.005+08:00

"Real Life Stories

(When I was 17 my girlfriend at the time was finally ready to have sex. I, as one might expect of a 17 year old, was excited. Neither hell nor high water was going to stand between me and my final destination.

I get ready for the night, trim everything up, shower extra well. Unfortunately there was also an issue. I have a digestional disorder that sometimes cause my shit to become large and quite solid while still inside me. I wasn't aware it was a treatable problem and, in fact, just thought everyone had to deal with the equivalent of anal kidney stones. I bring this up because I had a mighty one which had been loaded into the gun for several days.

Let me set the scene. Her parents are away. We have her house to ourselves. She was always a little kinky so she demands we do it in her parents bed.

I walk in to a candle holocaust. She's been working on this all day apparently, and its as bright as high noon in there with the lights off. Which is good, because she proceeds to do a sweet, sexy little dance for me. At 16, she was AMAZING. For those of you who never experienced a female at that age, I pity the fool.

Now I'm sitting on the bed, watching this dance. I smile and tell her how good she looks. Unfortunately, most of my attention is focused on the dull throbbing from my sphincter and the large amount of intestinal discomfort associated with not dropping duce in days. But somehow I still get hard and we go to town.

She starts out on top, then we switch. I bend her over the bed, and I even smack her ass (a ballsy move at the time, but she loved it). Due to my built up distraction, I last for what seems like FOREVER. She can't stop moaning and telling me how good it feels, and then she says what every man wants to hear "I want to make you go in my mouth." I **** love women.

So she goes down on me. She was always average at best in the head department but at least she tried. She pops my **** out of her mouth long enough to look up at me and say "tell me if you like this". Then I feel it.

She stuck her finger up my ass.

My brain hits the panic switch and every muscle in my entire body locks up tighter than a three year old virgin. But its too late.

I take a massive, PAINFUL, PAINFUL shit, all over her parents comforter.

No, you aren't understanding. I mean large. Huge. IMMENSE. Take your largest shit and multiple it by forty-two and you'll have an idea of what flew out of me.

And gents, when I say flew, I don't mean "I pooped." I mean "projectile". I mean "hurricane force winds hitting an umbrella stand". And due to my condition, it comes out as a large, dark brown, smelly harpoon.

I know it hit her. I didn't see it. She ran screaming "OH MY GOD OHMYGODOHMYGODEEEEEWWWWWWWW" but I always imagined that, due to her position, it hit her right in the chin. Or at least the tits.

I would like to say I got up to go after her. But I heard the bathroom door shut and I just lied there. The smell hit me after a few seconds. It smelled like someone rolled a cat in shit and threw it into a tire fire. I looked down and saw, to date, the largest bowel movement I've ever heard of laying on the bed. Then I noticed the blood, and when I did, I noticed the pain.

Apparently the fact that it was so large caused it to rip my ass a little bit (thought I was bleeding from the inside. This little doctors trip the next day is what taught me of my condition). There was a small pool of blood where my ass had been. A final reminder of the exact place and moment I lost my virginity. I will treasure this memory for all my days.

I grab my shit with my hands and go to the downstairs bathroom. I throw around 1/3 into the toilet and flush, fearing any more will clog it and only add to my already significant woes.

I stand there, holding 2/3's of my biggest shit of all time, feeling a trickle of blood flow down my leg, trying to ignore the sharp pain stabbing my rectum. I find myself wishing I had a photo of this.

Anyway, I finish flushing my baby, clean off my hands, jam toilet paper between my cheeks (I skipped the bandaid) and went upstairs. I could hear my girlfriend sobbing from behind the bathroom door. I decided not to say anything to her and just keep moving. The smell in her parents room was abysmal. Its like when you take a shit and walk out of the bathroom you think "hey not so bad today," but then you walk back in to grab your magazine and go "HOLY SHIT!". It was one of those moments.

The scene is burned behind my eyelids for all time. My life. My shame. My very first time smelled like a pile of dead babies. I quickly got dressed since the heat from ten thousand candles was making the room feel more like a port-a-potty. I was aware enough to grab the comforter on my way out and drag it downstairs to their washer. Also the top and bottom sheets since the blood had leaked on through all the way to mattress. Still no sign of the GF but at this point I considered it a blessing.

I jammed in the washer with 3 loads worth of detergent and set it on spin, knowing that not even the hand of God would save these linens, let alone Tide and Snuggles.

Then I left. I avoided my GF's calls for days until she came to my house. We had a long talk about what happened. Talk being synonymous with "breaking up with me because I shit on her". And it was all over. She promised not to tell a soul and I don't THINK she ever did. She was probably as ashamed as I was about the whole deed. But I will always this happening as the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to me.) "

The above is a joke from jokediary, which I read during my free leisure time.
A month had passed, I had resisted temptation urges which consisted of fast food, burgers, soft drinks, etc. and jogged every single day @ sport stadium.
Guess how much I had lost ~
1kg ?
2kg ?
4kg ?
5kg ? Impossible

From 68.5kg to the current 65.5kg ... Do your maths
Anyway, I'm have tried out every single remedy to cure my keratosis pilaris conditions but sadly, it's uncurable, like Aids,Dementia etc.
At first thought I thought of trying every remedies but ...

Creams are not working for me
Coconut oil is not working
Suntanning it is not working
Moisturizers are not working

I'm dispirited.
What does that means ?
It means if I wore any singlets or clothings exposing my upper thighs and upper arms, It will lower my self-esteem.

In fact, it has started

Screw it

On a lighter note, I'm gonna buy some dumbbells to train my biceps and upper arms at home to gain muscles to effectively lose fats to the max.

Bye, and off to suntec city mall.

120 days - 24 days = 96 days left . . .

2009-12-13T13:33:00.007+08:00

Day 24
Ain't I'm glad that I'm ready to throw my 2weeks' cast on my knees as I've already recovered fully, in fact, I had continued to run yesterday, cheers.
Well after 24 days, my stomach seems to shrink down a bit,
and I'm glad to say my face has lesser pimples now because I didn't ate any fried food for the past one month.

Whenever I look in the mirror I always wonder why my chest & face fats didn't break down at all, but realised in order to break them down, I must break down my stomach's first.
I'm so freaking happy because I can jog again, run again . . .

Byebye, hanging too much in much of the laptop = obesity, and I ain't going to have that again :)

(P/S) I had lost 2kg !!! Awesome
(P/P/S) The comments section has been added back, cheers

Sympathy constitutes friendship

2009-11-30T14:17:00.006+08:00

-"One word for this: Awesome"

Day 11 (Dieting + 8days of exercising w/o my knee sprain)

Confused ?

That means that I'm down with knee sprain for 3days.

Hopefully by tomorrow it will heal in time.

Not so soon because I had hurt it again -_-

To add salt to the wound, bruises have surfaced on my waist dued to using an extremely heavy hula hoop which weights about 1.25kg to do such extreme exercise.

Sucks big time

Motivation + constant hardwork

2009-11-26T22:06:00.004+08:00

Finally bomber jacket has arrived in a form of parcel.
Well there goes my $$40 (insert your sad face here)
And it's Day 6 of my dieting and extremely exercising activities.
Might as well write down my diet everyday for me to remember :

(Breakfast)
1 glass of low fat milk
1 bowl of low fat cereal
2 bananas

Hula hoops for half an hour
Drink 2 glasses of water after workout

(Lunch)
-Nil

Hula hoops for one hour while watching tv
Do 4 sets of squatting + some push ups for begginners
Drink 2 glasses of water after workout
Heads to Bedok stadium for extreme jogging for one hour
(either 6pm or 7pm depends weather)

(Dinner)
6 mouth scoop of rice + small portion of lean meat for protein
Drink 2 glasses of water
Eat any one fruit
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Yeah day 6 of repeating the whole damn chain again.
Fml why didn't I think twice when I ate those fattening fats my past life ?
Hard, but it's worth it.
Today I stood on the weighting scale ...
Happy. I've lost 1kg +
Well. I have set a target to reach.
By school reopens I would lose those fats on my chest, stomach, face and another 6 months I would at least achieve muscle.
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There is less in this than meets the eye

2009-11-21T17:49:00.006+08:00

-"Pictures from cbs.com @ Antm

Hover over for names"

Yesterday was dress down day for the both of us heading towards town. Ended up attracted a lot of eye catch from the passerbys on the streets. And can you believe that it was my first time in Ion orchard after like, it opened around 6 months ago? Guess I'm aging faster than anyone in terms of new shopping malls' update. Right now it's going to rain sooner or later. My temporary high for running to become fit just now has just screwed up. Shit

Love is metaphysical gravity

2009-11-19T01:10:00.003+08:00

Sister's 21st birthday celebration @ Sakura buffet. Choked down about one week's meal into my stomach from 6 - 9pm. All that ice-cream, truffles, sushis, pasta, pizza, party snackers, fresh meat ... totally worth the $$$. But I see myself tending to cause obesity. What should I do? *Sigh* It's hard to resist temptation in this current era as we are all living in an obesogenic enviroment...

The only abnormality is the incapacity to love

2009-11-18T00:30:00.003+08:00

It's 12am right now.
Happy birthday to the three of you.
Went for SGH @ Outram for a visit, but would elaborate slightly.
How should I say... Oh well... I browse through every store @ the ground floor to kill time while they are all upstairs chatting with my grandpa's brother resting on the bed.
Hmm... So I ate Ice Kachang, Macoroni, Ruffles etc. from 2 - 7pm to kill time.
But by doing all these, I had taken in an overabundance of sugar + fats just from that...
My body is calling, and it wants to become fitter.

The true work of art is but a shadow of the divine perfection

2009-11-16T19:20:00.003+08:00

-" The gore kissing game from dA"

Let me blog about yesterday.

Purple potato jagabee + Seaweed pringles are absolutely awesome to company you through those boring moments for waiting someone to come back in the wee midnight.

Can't you believe after hours and hours of popping those comedy discs into the dvd player and hours and hours of waiting the person you are waiting for did not came back untill the next morning ?
I WANT MY SLEEP BACK

Underated

2009-11-15T16:02:00.002+08:00

This music video of Lady gaga's Bad Romance is awesome.
Uploaded fast + unique style that stands from the crowd,that allows it to deserve a 5 star credit.

Priceless piece of art

2009-11-15T12:17:00.001+08:00

Hi, I'm back to blogging because the web is evil.
Nothing's new, everything is boring.
Goodbye

从今天开始，我会以华语来博客一下。。。
大家好！我，因为网上太无聊了，才会回来博客的。。。
没什么新玩的，什么东西都太无聊的，
再见